Flower · Luciferious

Today, I made a horrific spiritual decision. I'm ashamed of myself, even as I write this. There is a stray cat at work ( she's been there longer than me... )and she is constantly suffering from eye infections. There are two other cat's that we "claim" as ours, however no one is that fond of this particular one. Today, noticing her bad condition ( two large open wounds ) I decided ( with another gentleman ) to catch her and take her to the Director. Well the director instead of offering to take this cat to the vet ( four other animals had just returned from the vet ) she decides to tell the secretary to call the pound. This poor cat was hauled off to the pound where she will most certainly be "Put To Sleep" the horror of my Error is that she was also Pregnant, so innocent new lives will be destroyed due to my weakness and failure to make a stand against this act.
Do I have a HEART or am I just a cold,numbed out ZOMBIE ? How could anyone with a Soul allow such a thing to happen ? I realize that it's time that I take a real good look at myself,who and what I've become and take steps to correct this Error within.

Love is the law.

( this message was originally intended for posting on Zur's blog, however he doea not have me listed as a friend, and doesnt allow for non friend posts, so ive posted it here )

I love you Zurx,
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It was a pleasure reading your post ( it'z been several months since I've been able )

2~cents - I can relate, how much and to what level ? Doesnt matter, but I can relate. Analyze everything, where are you at ? Are you trully living and expressing within your true will? The universe seems to be trying to tell you something.

Listen.

Love Allways, metamorphosis 616

Heres some entertainment for the three of you ( and thats a high estimation ) who frequent this live journel.

Situations being what they may, and the waves of chaos passing over, around and through me, I now find myself verged upon taking refuge with the enemy. I will be staying with a group of christians for a couple months, where I am told "we will be praising and worshiping the lord" hehe.

I'm curious what's been going on within this beloved mysterious order, everytime I break away for several months and return the vibe has always changed among those who frequent the room ( not saying for better or worse )Or at this point is the room still relivent? I haven't had access to the chatrooms or the radio shows for several months now.

Does anyone remember the violet tree, the pods , the temple at the edge of eternity ? Feel free to visit me astrally and help guide the way.

When our worlds they fall appart
When the wall start tumbling in
Even though we do deserve this
It could be worth it
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Just a bitter taste on my tounge
Black maismic swamp I decided to swim
Just falling in, negative infinite expansion
Erase,surpass, conclusion to an end
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Just soiled up my blue dress
Hair dredded and in a mess
Screamed so loud I've gone def
Striving ever more towards death
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p.s The sun makes me happy :)

Blue Dress
It takes so long to hide
Grey fuzz
The stuff that never dies
Leaking in
So much it hurts my eyes
I breath out
So deep it's hard to lie

Silk touch
So much' I'll burn my skin
Take me away
To you and we'll begin
But don't touch me

Just lets the wounds fade
Don't think of me
Let me march this soft parade
Don't forget me
I'll die within your thoughts

Forasake me?
It's enough to feel a touch, of your blue dress

Just getting back from the laundry matt, it was closing up while I was there, I i took the opportunity to enjoy the twilight atmosphere of the room as the main lights were shut off, and just a few of us were left there being hypnotized by the steady humm of the machines.

When my load was ready and I starting removing it from the dryer i heard a sudden, sharp, exclaimated "wooh wooh take it eazy youn mann..you fol so fas ! you fol so fass !" I look up to see an older asian man who was finishing closing the place down, looking at me in a bit of wonder. Apparently he thought my folding style was funny ( I just take everything from the dryer in piles and shoove them into my duffle bag )

After i was finished he looked at me and asked " wha happen ?" I replied " I fold fast"

I start my new job at 'McDonalds' this tuesday. HaHa...what can I say?
Oddly I'm looking forward to it, the last time I worked fast food I was a teenager, I seem to recall liking it then, simply because of the low stress level and non commitment... Why Mc D's and not some job elsewhere ? Certainly I have 'some' skill level at this point in my life, i could jump back into Flooring ( actually I never would, it's to hard on the body ) Well what about retail ? Or shit I could always score another factory job?

The answer is simple, this is where I'm at.

I've always felt that if my Spiritual Work was being supported than it simply did'nt matter what I was doing out in the secular world. I would be perfectly content shovling cow shit as long as my spiritual work was being supported.

Besides theres a management opportunity here ! ( said with oddly sincere enthusiasm ) My cost of living is so low that I'm blessed with being able to pull something like this off. How long will it last ? I don't know, I will go with the flow, my time here in York Pennsylvania has been existential.

Life is so short, are you doing your spiritual work ? And are you living your will ? What's more important to you, job status and positioning ? Or your progression along this Magickal Path ?

Questions.

Humans now face a probable extinction, the infinite universe with it's trillions of galaxies, each of those galaxies holding trillions of stars, each star holding possible life bearing earth like planets, and this whole conglomoration expanding, stretching and flowing into Eternity.

When man is gone will we be missed ?

We have an opportunity here to understand, to know and expereince all this but first there is one prerequiset.
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Permanence

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The information loop must continue in order to process and link up with the universal collective.


"You must evolve and do this quickly because there isnt much time"
( Aaron C Donahue )

Fresh cut bone ( broken flesh )
Fall to the see (taste of death)
A withered spirit (some things hidden)
That follows me (some secrets kept)
I'll be the hero ( no you wont)
I'll play the routine (or mannic King)
I'll search within (Into what?)
And find the key (...)
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Broken glass (mish mash soul)
I swallow whole (swollowed whole)
I knew the earth (you'll never win)
It "had" a soul (I have control)
I'm incomplete (...system error)
Computer controled (program not complete)
Reality is bleak ( system error)
This machine's gone cold (program obsolete)
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Twisted serpents (broken circle)
Enter's my chest (the end has come)
Look real hard (look how ruined)
See sex in death(you have become)
Look real thurough(synthetic emotions)
And don't you run (Holographic Sun)
Just look how ruined (no air to breath)
We have become (Matrix not done)
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Look how ruined (kill us please)
We have become(were not alive)
Filet Mignon (system error)
Rotting in the sun(2025)
Look how ruined (...system error)
Things have become (2025)